Post by kiraizumi on Oct 7, 2018 23:01:18 GMT
.:October 2, 2018:.
Kira is back in the therapist's office after a few weeks. If he was to be honest with anyone he really never wanted to go in the first place, but seeing the faces of his wife and his one year old daughter gave him the courage, the bravery to even go back to a place like this.
Kira is sitting in the same leather chair he was in a few weeks ago, the same white walls with the same ever ticking clock. He focuses on the nametag of the therapist, but not for long. He soon starts twiddling his thumbs and his leg starts bouncing up and down as if it has a mind of it’s own.
”(Glad to see you came back Izumi-san! Most people who come here don’t come back, so it’s very good to see you here again. Last time we talked you told me a little bit about your father and mother, as well as your childhood. Today i’d like to go into more detail with this and i’d for you to let me know how that made you feel. Stuff like that, maybe we can move on to more things too, but i’d like you to take your time and go at your own pace.)”
Kira continues to avoid eye contact with the doctor, but manages to get something out under his breath.
”(D-do i needa talk ‘bout my childhood? Do i really needa?)”
”(Yes, it’s important for you to talk about these things and get your emotions out. It’s very important for you to heal and for me to help you, ok? Just take your time.)”
”(You know… I… uh… When i waza kid… he’d…)”
Kira hesitates before letting it out.
”(He’d git so damn angry… so fuckin’ angry… he’d grab the closest thang to ‘em an’ he’d just lay it out on us. Just beat me an’ ma. The neighbours didn’t give a shit ‘r come ta help ‘r nuthin’. They laughed and snickered bahind our backs! The fuckers wouldn’t even come ta help us! Not a single one!)”
Kira stars getting angrier and angrier as his fists start to clench up, his body is shaking with rage as many emotions flow through him. His fists get tighter and tighter till his fingernails dig deep into his palms, making them start to bleed.
”(Can ye even ‘magine that kinda shit doc?! Can ye? Havin’ those two faced fuckers do nuthin’ absalutly nuthin’! NOT A GOD DAMNED THING! An’ then when i went ta school the jack asses would all have a good laugh! Sure make the abused kid with a deadbeat dad the laughin’ stalk o’ the whole fuckin’ school! Go ahead an’ have yer fuckin’ laughes! You fuckin’ bastards can rot ‘n hell!)”
“(They’d go on ta say shit… make remarks ‘bout the bruises an’ shit. It wasn’t long bafore i knew that home ain’t normal, ain’t what it was supposed ta be… Ye know… despite those pieces of shit there’s one who cared, who didn’t crack jokes an’ shit… God… i was such an ass… such a worthless ass!)”
He starts pounding on his leg and the chair now, The doctor stays calm and tries to calm him back down a bit.
”(I can only imagine what you went through Izumi-san… Please, if you can can you tell me about your relationship with these people? With your mother, your… father, with kirito?)”
”(Ma… i toldja i loved her more than anythin’ Ma’d protect me an’ stuff. She’d… She’s a good ma. As good as any other, better than any other if ya ask me. But anyways, she’d do anything ta make our live just a bit better, ya know? She’d… i remember one time we’d made some lanterns fer new years an’ stuff. She used ta love playin’ music... )”
“(I could always hear the pain and sorrow she’d felt though… Ya know despite what ye think, i’s wasn’t much of a bad kid, least not while ma was alive… i didn’t wanna wory her no bit, not one bit at all. She’s carin’, lovin’... ya know all that stuff.)”
“(My… That demon… what he did… i’ll never forgive him, that’s what i told myself… but my relationship with him… he gave birth to me. That’s a plus i suppose. You know… he did do good things with me too. He did… good things… We’d watch Ultraman an’ wrasslin’ AJPW an’ NJPW when ever it’d come on TV. things like that. I actually… liked those times. Laughin’ an’ smilin’... cheerin’ on our heros, our favorite guys.)”
“(Kirito… She’d been my friend fer a while… we lived fairly close really an’ i’d run off wit ma sometimes ta her place. Her ma an’ mine were friends i think too. She’d always stick up fer me an’ things like that, ya know? It was me an’ her versus the world, things like that. But ye know we both got older, actually i’d gotten separated from her after… i’ll tell ya ‘bout that another time… what else should i be talkin’ ‘bout?)”
”(All of these things so far… they’ve happened before… the incident yes?)”
”(Y-yeah… bafore…)”
”(You want to wait before we go down that rabbit hole or do you want to talk about that night now?)”
Kira sits there quietly, thinking… that is before he replies.
”(Let’s wait till next time doc… i’ll tell ya ‘bout it then… right now i think it’s been plenty o’ time talkin’ witcha… T-thanks doc fer helpin’ me an’... listening… i know it’s yer job an’ all, but i feel yer helpin’...)”
”(It’s alright Izumi-san, we’ll get to that next time or whenever you’re ready for it. For now our time’s up, but don’t worry we’ll talk more next week?)”
”(Yeah Doc, Next Week…)”
.:October 3, 2018:.
”(Ye know i’d gotten put into a one on one with my ole’ friend Moxly earlier this week. Than all o’ sudden i see the card again and they put some dumb ass bitch in with us. Done ruined all the fun, is what they done did i tell ya! So i saw what this… goldin somes shit or another. Ya know she’s said lots. Really she did.)”
Kira can be seen sitting outside somewhere, behind him is a large wooden fence painted red.
”(Listen here ya arrogant lil’ ass, if ye think talkin’ shit ‘bout Japan an’ America is gonna faze me, it ain’t. I don’t give a damn about that shit, nor do i give a rats ass ‘bout yer shit hole of a country either. Go back there fer all i care ‘bout. If ya have a fuckin’ problem go on back ta yer cesspool. Ya talk about my country bein’ spoiled?)”
“(Do you even have a fuckin’ clue who yer talkin’ to? Listen when i tell ya this, my life has been far from spoiled. I worked fer every single mother fuckin’ thing i’ve ever had. Instead o’ bitchin’ an’ whinin’ ‘bout every god damn thing i busted my ass off an’ earned what i got in life. Quit actin’ like a lil’ punk ass an’ actually make yerself useful.)”
“(Package me up an’ send me back ta Japan? We’re in japan ya fuckin’ idiot! Tear my head off ya say? Well you’ll get yer chance soon enough, an’ if you don’t tear it off, i’ll be sure ta tear yers right off. Actually i’ll drop yer dumb ass right on yer fuckin’ head and maybe wake up a few brain cells fer ya. Talkin’ ‘bout i have many hair colors an’ shit… you got a hundred times more than me!)”
“(Now anyway enough ‘bout you, lets go on ta talk about the ever silent Chris~Chan! Hey Chris~Chan, it’s been a while hasn’t it? Well not really, since last NBW show… but you know what i mean. I mean we haven’t even talked since meeting up earlier this year in Bumfuck, Ohio. ‘r was it last year? See yer so irrelevant i just don’t remember. Honestly i ain’t even sure what happened last time, i just know i wanna drop ya on yer fuckin’ head.)”
“(An’ besides Chris~Chan, you ain’t running away or getting away from me this time. Naw, you an’ that delusional skank are gonna see what happens when ya piss me off. ‘Cause i am pissed off, i lost in a match that was sapposed ta be mine. But hey, there’s always next time an’ next time is against a punk ass kid who does nothing but disappear and pop his suck ass back in a new place. Ya ain’t runnin’ kid, an’ i’ll beat the shit outta both o’ ya. I don’t need to watch tapes or shit. All’s i need is ta go in, beat ya, an’ win. Now git outta my face cockslaps, an’ you two ya hoos… well, YER DEAD!)”
Kira is back in the therapist's office after a few weeks. If he was to be honest with anyone he really never wanted to go in the first place, but seeing the faces of his wife and his one year old daughter gave him the courage, the bravery to even go back to a place like this.
Kira is sitting in the same leather chair he was in a few weeks ago, the same white walls with the same ever ticking clock. He focuses on the nametag of the therapist, but not for long. He soon starts twiddling his thumbs and his leg starts bouncing up and down as if it has a mind of it’s own.
”(Glad to see you came back Izumi-san! Most people who come here don’t come back, so it’s very good to see you here again. Last time we talked you told me a little bit about your father and mother, as well as your childhood. Today i’d like to go into more detail with this and i’d for you to let me know how that made you feel. Stuff like that, maybe we can move on to more things too, but i’d like you to take your time and go at your own pace.)”
Kira continues to avoid eye contact with the doctor, but manages to get something out under his breath.
”(D-do i needa talk ‘bout my childhood? Do i really needa?)”
”(Yes, it’s important for you to talk about these things and get your emotions out. It’s very important for you to heal and for me to help you, ok? Just take your time.)”
”(You know… I… uh… When i waza kid… he’d…)”
Kira hesitates before letting it out.
”(He’d git so damn angry… so fuckin’ angry… he’d grab the closest thang to ‘em an’ he’d just lay it out on us. Just beat me an’ ma. The neighbours didn’t give a shit ‘r come ta help ‘r nuthin’. They laughed and snickered bahind our backs! The fuckers wouldn’t even come ta help us! Not a single one!)”
Kira stars getting angrier and angrier as his fists start to clench up, his body is shaking with rage as many emotions flow through him. His fists get tighter and tighter till his fingernails dig deep into his palms, making them start to bleed.
”(Can ye even ‘magine that kinda shit doc?! Can ye? Havin’ those two faced fuckers do nuthin’ absalutly nuthin’! NOT A GOD DAMNED THING! An’ then when i went ta school the jack asses would all have a good laugh! Sure make the abused kid with a deadbeat dad the laughin’ stalk o’ the whole fuckin’ school! Go ahead an’ have yer fuckin’ laughes! You fuckin’ bastards can rot ‘n hell!)”
“(They’d go on ta say shit… make remarks ‘bout the bruises an’ shit. It wasn’t long bafore i knew that home ain’t normal, ain’t what it was supposed ta be… Ye know… despite those pieces of shit there’s one who cared, who didn’t crack jokes an’ shit… God… i was such an ass… such a worthless ass!)”
He starts pounding on his leg and the chair now, The doctor stays calm and tries to calm him back down a bit.
”(I can only imagine what you went through Izumi-san… Please, if you can can you tell me about your relationship with these people? With your mother, your… father, with kirito?)”
”(Ma… i toldja i loved her more than anythin’ Ma’d protect me an’ stuff. She’d… She’s a good ma. As good as any other, better than any other if ya ask me. But anyways, she’d do anything ta make our live just a bit better, ya know? She’d… i remember one time we’d made some lanterns fer new years an’ stuff. She used ta love playin’ music... )”
“(I could always hear the pain and sorrow she’d felt though… Ya know despite what ye think, i’s wasn’t much of a bad kid, least not while ma was alive… i didn’t wanna wory her no bit, not one bit at all. She’s carin’, lovin’... ya know all that stuff.)”
“(My… That demon… what he did… i’ll never forgive him, that’s what i told myself… but my relationship with him… he gave birth to me. That’s a plus i suppose. You know… he did do good things with me too. He did… good things… We’d watch Ultraman an’ wrasslin’ AJPW an’ NJPW when ever it’d come on TV. things like that. I actually… liked those times. Laughin’ an’ smilin’... cheerin’ on our heros, our favorite guys.)”
“(Kirito… She’d been my friend fer a while… we lived fairly close really an’ i’d run off wit ma sometimes ta her place. Her ma an’ mine were friends i think too. She’d always stick up fer me an’ things like that, ya know? It was me an’ her versus the world, things like that. But ye know we both got older, actually i’d gotten separated from her after… i’ll tell ya ‘bout that another time… what else should i be talkin’ ‘bout?)”
”(All of these things so far… they’ve happened before… the incident yes?)”
”(Y-yeah… bafore…)”
”(You want to wait before we go down that rabbit hole or do you want to talk about that night now?)”
Kira sits there quietly, thinking… that is before he replies.
”(Let’s wait till next time doc… i’ll tell ya ‘bout it then… right now i think it’s been plenty o’ time talkin’ witcha… T-thanks doc fer helpin’ me an’... listening… i know it’s yer job an’ all, but i feel yer helpin’...)”
”(It’s alright Izumi-san, we’ll get to that next time or whenever you’re ready for it. For now our time’s up, but don’t worry we’ll talk more next week?)”
”(Yeah Doc, Next Week…)”
.:October 3, 2018:.
”(Ye know i’d gotten put into a one on one with my ole’ friend Moxly earlier this week. Than all o’ sudden i see the card again and they put some dumb ass bitch in with us. Done ruined all the fun, is what they done did i tell ya! So i saw what this… goldin somes shit or another. Ya know she’s said lots. Really she did.)”
Kira can be seen sitting outside somewhere, behind him is a large wooden fence painted red.
”(Listen here ya arrogant lil’ ass, if ye think talkin’ shit ‘bout Japan an’ America is gonna faze me, it ain’t. I don’t give a damn about that shit, nor do i give a rats ass ‘bout yer shit hole of a country either. Go back there fer all i care ‘bout. If ya have a fuckin’ problem go on back ta yer cesspool. Ya talk about my country bein’ spoiled?)”
“(Do you even have a fuckin’ clue who yer talkin’ to? Listen when i tell ya this, my life has been far from spoiled. I worked fer every single mother fuckin’ thing i’ve ever had. Instead o’ bitchin’ an’ whinin’ ‘bout every god damn thing i busted my ass off an’ earned what i got in life. Quit actin’ like a lil’ punk ass an’ actually make yerself useful.)”
“(Package me up an’ send me back ta Japan? We’re in japan ya fuckin’ idiot! Tear my head off ya say? Well you’ll get yer chance soon enough, an’ if you don’t tear it off, i’ll be sure ta tear yers right off. Actually i’ll drop yer dumb ass right on yer fuckin’ head and maybe wake up a few brain cells fer ya. Talkin’ ‘bout i have many hair colors an’ shit… you got a hundred times more than me!)”
“(Now anyway enough ‘bout you, lets go on ta talk about the ever silent Chris~Chan! Hey Chris~Chan, it’s been a while hasn’t it? Well not really, since last NBW show… but you know what i mean. I mean we haven’t even talked since meeting up earlier this year in Bumfuck, Ohio. ‘r was it last year? See yer so irrelevant i just don’t remember. Honestly i ain’t even sure what happened last time, i just know i wanna drop ya on yer fuckin’ head.)”
“(An’ besides Chris~Chan, you ain’t running away or getting away from me this time. Naw, you an’ that delusional skank are gonna see what happens when ya piss me off. ‘Cause i am pissed off, i lost in a match that was sapposed ta be mine. But hey, there’s always next time an’ next time is against a punk ass kid who does nothing but disappear and pop his suck ass back in a new place. Ya ain’t runnin’ kid, an’ i’ll beat the shit outta both o’ ya. I don’t need to watch tapes or shit. All’s i need is ta go in, beat ya, an’ win. Now git outta my face cockslaps, an’ you two ya hoos… well, YER DEAD!)”