Post by myadenton on Jan 21, 2018 4:54:12 GMT
Why does it feel like night today?
Something in here's not right today
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
or how the pressure was fed/but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face that watches everytime I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
The face inside is here in me/right underneath my skin
~"Papercut" by Linkin Park
Mya's side
Most days it is hard. The fight with the voice in my head. It wants to take over and I am trying hard to hold it together. It is hard to explain how April came about. I woke up one day and she was there. She claims it is because of the heart break I had in the past. I try most of the time to black out most of the memories in my past and that is mostly due to April's help. That is where the darkness comes from, it is from her.
The most common question I am asked is do I know when April takes over or do I know what she says when she does take over. The answer is yes and no. I should be, but most of the time it just leaves me in a haze. It is like a drug in a way. I am told that my eyes do turn black when she takes over, I don't know why though. Currently though I am very much in charge as I sit in the middle of the park watching over kids play or yell. I give a smile at this, these kids are lucky to have the childhood that I didn't get to have.
The crying next to me brings me back to the reality of today as I look in the stroller and give a smile.
Mya- Shh Sterling, it's ok. Mommy is here.
There isn't much that is known about me and that I keep secret. Yes I am a mother to a 13 month old. Her father though died but was the one that brought me out of the darkness that was once in my past. With him gone, April showed up again. I pick up Sterling holding her and humming to her a song that my adopted mother use to hum to me as I rock her back to sleep. I look up to the sky.
Mya- Life isn't easy. There are things that I hate to do. I hate to be a single mother. I hate that I have to raise my daughter without her father. I hate my past and the struggle that I went through and overcome to just suffer again. I highly doubt that Verez has lived with the pain that I endured. It's that type of pain that I wouldn't wish upon my worse enemy but if I had a choice, I wouldn't change the past. Why? Because it led me to here. It led me to this path. It led me to NBW. It put me in your path. I am sure you want to believe that I am scared or that I am to small to do anything. Keep thinking that, I have had so many people in the past tell me to give this up. To find another path and that this wasn't for me. I have wrestled with my demons and bitches the size of Goliath. I may have come out bruised but I never ran from a fight.
You may live in another vail of time or travel through time, truth be told that sounds like something from a Syfy movie I watch with Van Damm in it. What was that called...TimeCop or something along that line. Anyway, I suggest you poof yourself to another plan of existence because this week is not going to be great for you. This week you will want to redo over again. Girl, Deja vu must suck for you. Then again what do I know right, I am in my own little world but at least I dominate my own world. I got no one to blame but myself for the choices that I made Verez, just like you don't have a choice when you lose this match.
I look back at my daughter who is sleeping again as I smile at her and place her back in her stroller as I stand up. I look at the sky again and give a small smile as the wind blows slightly before walking away pushing said stroller away as the camera fades out.
April's side
Darkness is my friend. Another way to describe is with this quote, "Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people." Carl Jung said that and I can't say that I can't agree more with his logic. You have met Mya and on the outside she looks pleasant and easy to talk to. Looks can be deceiving. Yes I know she hates me but she also can't live without me. I am the one that brings that evil out.
My name is April, I am the voice in Mya's head. The one that controls that evil side of her. The vicious side. She wondered why it took so long for me to come out. I was always there. Always telling her to strive more. Push harder. Fight for those that have done her wrong. I finally broke out. Made her listen and looks what happens. It get's the job done.
April- Mya has wondered why I have come out to play now. It's simple, she let me out. You see the evil of the world tends to lead to the darkness being let out of someone. Mya's story is one of heartache. Her birth mother passed away when she was 7 and she was put in the system. She never knew her real father and maybe that is a good thing, heard he was a real pain in the ass. She was put in a foster home where the whole family tortured her. Both physical and mentally. Those bastards sent her back when she was finally adopted at the age of 10 by the Denton family. They were nice and it took her time for her to trust them. She flinched every time that tried to hug or comfort her. She got into the world of wrestling by watching with her adoptive father and grandfather. Let home the day after graduating high school and never turned back. Never looked back. This world of wrestling isn't kind though. She was used there as well. Chewed up and spit out by men that told her that they loved her.
Why did I tell you that story? It is simple, I finally showed up the last time she was left behind, although I wouldn't blame that on her husband. He was old but he used her as well and then left her to fed for herself when he passed away. I came to light when the one that comforter her, raped her as well, which happened to be her husband's son from another marriage. Darkness tends to make people do evil things, which is why I am here now. I tend to control Mya's journey through NBW, which started last week with a win. This week L. Verez, another who seems to hides on a different plane of existence.
You Verez, may just be as crazy as I am. However, I am demented, borderline insane and I love it. You see I am like that lyric in the song "Judas" by Fozzy. "Embraced by the darkness, I'm losing the light. Encircled by demons, I fight" and yes I do indeed fight. I will show No Mercy to anyone. No man, woman, or clowns. Hide your children because I am coming to find everyone that has done Mya Denton wrong. I am your judge, jury, and executioner Verez. Why? I bet you are asking what did you do to piss me off, to get the wrath I am unleashing on you at the current time? You were put in the match. You were put in harms way of a certified lunatic. *laughs* It sucks to be you right now.
I do hope you can live through the pain and the torture that I am going to bestow on you Verez. I will say this though, NBW, keep your eyes on the mayhem that you are about to cause. Give me what I want, give me Gold. Any gold will do and I will do your bidding. I will be at your beckon call. I will take out anyone on the roster that you want me to but remember it comes with a price and in the end, I always get what I want.
April takes a deep breath before walking away into the darkness as the camera fades to black.
Something in here's not right today
Why am I so uptight today?
Paranoia's all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
or how the pressure was fed/but
I know just what it feels like
To have a voice in the back of my head
It's like a face that I hold inside
A face that awakes when I close my eyes
A face that watches everytime I lie
A face that laughs every time I fall
(And watches everything)
So I know that when it's time to sink or swim
The face inside is here in me/right underneath my skin
~"Papercut" by Linkin Park
Mya's side
Most days it is hard. The fight with the voice in my head. It wants to take over and I am trying hard to hold it together. It is hard to explain how April came about. I woke up one day and she was there. She claims it is because of the heart break I had in the past. I try most of the time to black out most of the memories in my past and that is mostly due to April's help. That is where the darkness comes from, it is from her.
The most common question I am asked is do I know when April takes over or do I know what she says when she does take over. The answer is yes and no. I should be, but most of the time it just leaves me in a haze. It is like a drug in a way. I am told that my eyes do turn black when she takes over, I don't know why though. Currently though I am very much in charge as I sit in the middle of the park watching over kids play or yell. I give a smile at this, these kids are lucky to have the childhood that I didn't get to have.
The crying next to me brings me back to the reality of today as I look in the stroller and give a smile.
Mya- Shh Sterling, it's ok. Mommy is here.
There isn't much that is known about me and that I keep secret. Yes I am a mother to a 13 month old. Her father though died but was the one that brought me out of the darkness that was once in my past. With him gone, April showed up again. I pick up Sterling holding her and humming to her a song that my adopted mother use to hum to me as I rock her back to sleep. I look up to the sky.
Mya- Life isn't easy. There are things that I hate to do. I hate to be a single mother. I hate that I have to raise my daughter without her father. I hate my past and the struggle that I went through and overcome to just suffer again. I highly doubt that Verez has lived with the pain that I endured. It's that type of pain that I wouldn't wish upon my worse enemy but if I had a choice, I wouldn't change the past. Why? Because it led me to here. It led me to this path. It led me to NBW. It put me in your path. I am sure you want to believe that I am scared or that I am to small to do anything. Keep thinking that, I have had so many people in the past tell me to give this up. To find another path and that this wasn't for me. I have wrestled with my demons and bitches the size of Goliath. I may have come out bruised but I never ran from a fight.
You may live in another vail of time or travel through time, truth be told that sounds like something from a Syfy movie I watch with Van Damm in it. What was that called...TimeCop or something along that line. Anyway, I suggest you poof yourself to another plan of existence because this week is not going to be great for you. This week you will want to redo over again. Girl, Deja vu must suck for you. Then again what do I know right, I am in my own little world but at least I dominate my own world. I got no one to blame but myself for the choices that I made Verez, just like you don't have a choice when you lose this match.
I look back at my daughter who is sleeping again as I smile at her and place her back in her stroller as I stand up. I look at the sky again and give a small smile as the wind blows slightly before walking away pushing said stroller away as the camera fades out.
April's side
Darkness is my friend. Another way to describe is with this quote, "Knowing your own darkness is the best method for dealing with the darkness of other people." Carl Jung said that and I can't say that I can't agree more with his logic. You have met Mya and on the outside she looks pleasant and easy to talk to. Looks can be deceiving. Yes I know she hates me but she also can't live without me. I am the one that brings that evil out.
My name is April, I am the voice in Mya's head. The one that controls that evil side of her. The vicious side. She wondered why it took so long for me to come out. I was always there. Always telling her to strive more. Push harder. Fight for those that have done her wrong. I finally broke out. Made her listen and looks what happens. It get's the job done.
April- Mya has wondered why I have come out to play now. It's simple, she let me out. You see the evil of the world tends to lead to the darkness being let out of someone. Mya's story is one of heartache. Her birth mother passed away when she was 7 and she was put in the system. She never knew her real father and maybe that is a good thing, heard he was a real pain in the ass. She was put in a foster home where the whole family tortured her. Both physical and mentally. Those bastards sent her back when she was finally adopted at the age of 10 by the Denton family. They were nice and it took her time for her to trust them. She flinched every time that tried to hug or comfort her. She got into the world of wrestling by watching with her adoptive father and grandfather. Let home the day after graduating high school and never turned back. Never looked back. This world of wrestling isn't kind though. She was used there as well. Chewed up and spit out by men that told her that they loved her.
Why did I tell you that story? It is simple, I finally showed up the last time she was left behind, although I wouldn't blame that on her husband. He was old but he used her as well and then left her to fed for herself when he passed away. I came to light when the one that comforter her, raped her as well, which happened to be her husband's son from another marriage. Darkness tends to make people do evil things, which is why I am here now. I tend to control Mya's journey through NBW, which started last week with a win. This week L. Verez, another who seems to hides on a different plane of existence.
You Verez, may just be as crazy as I am. However, I am demented, borderline insane and I love it. You see I am like that lyric in the song "Judas" by Fozzy. "Embraced by the darkness, I'm losing the light. Encircled by demons, I fight" and yes I do indeed fight. I will show No Mercy to anyone. No man, woman, or clowns. Hide your children because I am coming to find everyone that has done Mya Denton wrong. I am your judge, jury, and executioner Verez. Why? I bet you are asking what did you do to piss me off, to get the wrath I am unleashing on you at the current time? You were put in the match. You were put in harms way of a certified lunatic. *laughs* It sucks to be you right now.
I do hope you can live through the pain and the torture that I am going to bestow on you Verez. I will say this though, NBW, keep your eyes on the mayhem that you are about to cause. Give me what I want, give me Gold. Any gold will do and I will do your bidding. I will be at your beckon call. I will take out anyone on the roster that you want me to but remember it comes with a price and in the end, I always get what I want.
April takes a deep breath before walking away into the darkness as the camera fades to black.